Ball of Fluff
7/22/2006 5:59:00 AM
"Lord Xenu" <xenu.overlord@gmail.com> wrote in message
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> "Larry T." <xxxxxxxxxx@xxxxx.xxx> wrote in message
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>>
>> (SNIP)
>>
>> This post vanished from my Newsgroup Reader so allow me to properly
>> post my response to what you said:
>>
>> Lord Xenu wrote:
>>
>>> If I were Claire and her husband, I'd frame my SP
>>> Declare and hand it over my mantle as it represents a
>>> proclamation of final and total freedom from the
>>> cult of Scientology that had used and abused them.
>>
>>
>> And Larry T. responded A.S.A.P.:
>>
>>
>> Well, Claire Swazey is one thing, and perhaps they did, they know if
>> they did or not. It might be hanging over her fireplace.
>
> I was being facetious...sort of.
>
>>God forbid if she takes it over to her friends apartments and uses it as
>>an ice breaker {to start up a conversation with people over something, or
>>something
>> like that}.
Well, I should have framed it...never got around to it.
But, yes, I'm well-not so much proud as- glad/// Glad that I did what I
needed to do.
This may sound odd to some, I don't know- but I really really resisted the
idea of leaving and/or being expelled even after I figured out what was
going on in CofS. I still liked a lot of parts of the Scn philosophy (I know
a lot of people here most emphatically do NOT and that's ok) and people kept
telling me I could study it anywhere, without CofS, if I still was
interested in Scn.
But I felt an emotional attachment to CofS and thought "wouldn't it be great
if I could kind of agitate for reform from within?" and I thought that it
would be good if they had members who know the problems. And I don't mean
"oh everything written by Hubbard was peachy keen, it's just the way it's
being applied nowadays that's the problem." I mean the problems within the
philosophy itself, things CofS does not tell people about Hubbard that he
did and said, and, yes, all the stupid and mean (and illegal, too, some of
it) crap CofS pulls on its members.
I've been reading way too much medieval history. I was thinking Reformation.
The Magna Carta. The Peasant's Rebellion (and they were squashed like so
many bugs,weren't they!).
So anyway, I finally went "fuck it. You people piss me off. It's one thing
to be strict and occasionally crazy but mean and contemptuous to the very
people from whom you want time and money? What am I doing here?"
So that prompted me to walk away a year before the expulsion.
The expell/declare had/has a ton of lies in it. It's a pretty stupid
document but this is what they always do. They beef those things up and
throw in whatever they can.They act like a bunch of Communists who revise
history books and send people to reeducation camps and scream at them every
five seconds.
It seems very far away to me now that I worried so much and felt so hurt
about having to make that decision.
Right now, I'm not doing any auditing or courses at all. I'm doing
Yoga-though just the poses/asanas right now. And I've just ordered a book on
Buddhism that came highly recommended to me.
I like things I've studied that worked for me but I see no reason to limit
myself to ~just~ those things.
Yeah, I don't use either (yes, it happened twice. First time for leaving
staff without permission, even though I sucked up like a vacuum cleaner,
practically. Shouldn't have come back, but life is for learning.) expulsion
as a conversation piece. Most of my friends are vaguely aware that I used to
be in CofS and sometimes write stuff on forums, but we mainly talk about
plain ol' living when we get together. The Scn stuff comes up once in a
while but it's pretty far down the list of conversational subjects.
Tomorrow I'm going to a BBQ. I'm going to make my really great from scratch
apple pie with brandy soaked raisins, as my contribution.
I doubt very much that we'll be discussing Scn, there.
I'd say that I wish you guys could be there- 'cuz that would be a lot of
fun- but that would mean I'd be making a whole lot of pies. It takes a while
to peel all those apples...I don't know if I could deal with that...
;->
C